Pain is temporary!

Current Music: Serena Ryder – What I Wouldn’t Do

I really haven’t been doing much, hence the lack of posting.  As I said last time, when D is gone I don’t do much.  Luckily he is coming home tonight for a few days… before he is gone again.  I did get all caught up with Glee.  Nothing wrong with finishing four years worth of tv in two weeks or so, right?

I went for my (actual) final long run on Satuday before my race this Sunday!  I did just over 10 miles at an 11:19 pace.  I am SO NERVOUS for my race.  Training was going so well until Saturday, and since then I have been having a little pity party for myself.  Why, you may ask?

I have a pain in my leg.  It seems to be more in my hip flexor.. Maybe?  I am new to all of this so it’s only a guess, but I had a slight ache at the end of last week but I didn’t really think much about it.  I have been very cautious with my training when it comes to running.  If I felt like I needed to take a few days off in between runs, I took them.  I didn’t incorporate much strength training in between, however, and I think that is my downfall.  After my long run on Saturday, it was no longer an ache but full out pain.  It didn’t bother me while I was running, but it was once I drove home and I was walking up the stairs of my building that I realized I may have just did something really stupid.  I have been cursing myself ever since.

I streched lots, took a really cold bath after my long run, and I have been continuing with that ever since.  I went to the gym yesterday and used the elliptical for 45 minutes, pain still there.  I decided to try the treadmill this morning to see how it went.  Let’s just say it didn’t go well.  I could barely run a mile and then I stopped and did some light weights to strech it out a little more.  It hurts when I put weight on it.

After my cold bath (I just make the water as cold as it will get and then sit in it, no “ice” bath for this girl) and more ‘As if’s”, I decided to put the negativity away and stop worrying about it.  While that is sometimes easier said then done (especially with the constant reminder every time I step on it), I finally realized that it doesn’t matter.  I am still really hoping to run this half marathon this weekend, but if I end up having to drop out of it, who really cares?  Sure, it’ll be a huge blow to my ego, but really, when I started all this six months ago I could barely run a mile let alone 10.  What an accomplishment to even get that far.  There will be more races to sign up for, the season is only just beginning.  I took a giant leap when I committed to this race.  I spent a good three weeks going back and forth with myself on whether I should even set a goal that was quite possibly so far out of my reach, but I committed.  I could have easily signed up for the 5km or 10km race, but I was determined.

My fingers are still crossed.  My leg is going to heal.  I will ice it and take it easy from this point on and we’ll see how I feel when I wake up on Sunday.  Enough with the negativity, I have amazed myself so much already, so now we just wait and see.

I made these last night to satisfy my (never ending) sweet tooth, only I had to use a mix of dark chocolate and white chocolate chips because I didn’t have enough dark chocolate. This is probably my fourth time making them since they are so easy to make. Cookies typically burn when I bake them, even if I am watching the oven like a hawk, so these no-bake bites are perfect.